life

There is a saying that you should live life to the fullest. I guess that many people would say this quote is one of the quota they would truly would of take more serious. I guess that many of us don't take chance we go with life as a probability math problem that we weigh the odds and most of the time the odds would stake aganist us. Which we in the end choose to take the more secure choice or decisions of life. Well what i am trying to get at is that we don't take chances because we rather feel that security choice of life. Yeah life is difficult to see the "what ifs of life" and sometimes that what if would live with us for the rest of our life. I guess although i'm still young at the age of nineteen, had to make a choice of who to take a relationship with the person who i do have feelings for but i rather take friends who will be there for me for the rest of my life and will always be behind what ever i choose to do.
But i guess if i would of ever said these words to that girl maybe she could of been the one for me. Instead i choose the choice that would of be more secure to me that friends like these would last a lifetime and a relationships come and go but now i still ponder over what if i told her that i truely loved her or even i liked her. Isn't this life though the choices that we want to make we dont take upon ourselves to do so that living life to the fullest means to make the best of our life and still there is that what if to living like this.

The good old days

The other night as me and my friends gather for a usual gathering. We converse over our good old high school days. We talked about how is life used to be for us in high school being apart of the sports we played and i guess being apart of the inner crowd during high school. Topic were brought up like Who hooked up with who, whos the hottest girl and or who got hot and i believe this was the topic was converse over the most. Well we all agreed to a couple of things like how some girls "BLOOMED OR BLOSSOM" over the years. We did talked about how high school was just a big fat joke and that if we did put more effort we could of been top ten students. Just showing up to our class would of made a big difference. In the end we came up with the conclusion that we loved high school and it was oodles of fun but college life is much better and there are less restriction for the thing we do. It was all in the past of the good old days.
THAT THESE DAYS WERE SIMPLY THE BEST DAYS BY FAR. Simply these might happen every so often that you just gotta cherish it when they do come by and how great i do feel for such an occasion like this. A little gathering turning into something so worth writing about.

CHARGE

CHARGEEERSSSS.....THATS ALL YOU HEAR WALKING AROUND THE STADIUM OF THE SAN DIEGO CHARGERS. They actually happened to be my favorite football team. Lucky me my friend is one of the charger girl and her cousin is one of my best friend. Going to my first Pro football game was an experience, from the crowd support and actually watching professionals play the game at such a faster pace then i would see in college or high school. I was actually only three seats back from the field. I got to see some of the best in the nfl like Marvin Harrison, Payton Manning and LT like 10 yards from where i was sitting. I would recommend anyone who haven't experiance an Nfl football game to go. I think its just great to be there with ur friends or family. For me it was my friends and seeing my friend perform on the football field was pretty amazing and at the end of the game we got to meet some of her friends on the charger girl, Which i would say those girls are beautiful. So in the end charges loss to colts by a field goal and all i can say still is GO CHARGERS.....

liars....

Lying ...."liars never prosper" this quote, should be taking more serious because the consequences are always bad in the end. Maybe witnessing my little cousin lying to his brother this past weekend made me feel that the quote is really true. He lied about the simplest thing to. He felt that he didn't feel like walking the dogs (his pet) and when his brother got home from work. he was asked if he did so and so forth he lied. Why just the simply fact that he was lazy and he didn't want to do it. So in the end he was caught up with his lies. He didn't just get an lecture from his mom but his sister and so on u get my point. Its a bad habit and everyone does it but why just to get away from there little problems but in the end ultimately it gets you into a bigger delima. My little cousin the liar is grounded couldn't watch television lost his privilege to phones and contact to friends and the sad part he's only 12. i think starting young was the worst part Wat if he's in his 30 and just lied to his wife or something about going to the store and loses his relationship and life over lying. I think ultimately in the end just don't lie because liars never prosper.

RAVE

What is a rave one must ask? well i looked up this word and here is what wikipedia had to defined it "A rave (or rave party), is a term, in use since the 1980s, to describe dance parties (often all-night events). At these parties DJs and other performers play electronic dance music (sometimes referred to as "rave music"), with the accompaniment of laser light shows, projected images, and artificial fog." This would be the exact definition of what a rave is although i only been to one rave in my lifetime. Its just a big party that last for all night till maybe the next morning depending on the places that its held. There is another side to a rave the drugs that come along with it a drug that goes by the name of extacy(its suppose to repress ur feeling and give you an urge of good feeling and sexual orgasmic feelling). Anyways this drug some say is not harmful but there is a big amount people ranging from kids to adults that use this at the rave. Well me and my friends for the past weekend try to reenact this whole all-night event in a hotel exclude the drugs. It i had a bad feeling about reenacting an event like this because without the drugs some say it would just be an old simple boring party but actually it wasn't me and my friends would have to say that the whole all night party from dressing the "rave" attire too dance and to the electro music its was one of the best nights in my life.

Love

Love the best thing a person can receive form another person. Funny story i kinda don't believe or have faith in love. You can say I'm bias but its just my past dealing with this thing called love. How do one know when there in love anyways. I mean i feel that people throw this word love out there too often and it doesn't have that meaning that should come with it. I me sure you can say we love our parents but what does it mean to say love towards the one that you feel i guess this thing called love. Is love like that those stories we hear our parents say when they first feel in love with each other but wat if those stories are contradicted with a divorce. What would that word love stand in the stories that we were feed when where kids. Well although I'm still not sure of this word love really is??????????

I guess all i have to say that maybe one day i can find love. Or it can find me. I'm not in the search for it really just trying to do my own things in life. To better myself so maybe when the time is right i can ultimately

Growing Apart

Well having a certain relationship with others like friends, family and maybe partnership; somtimes can be confusing and many do grow apart in many ways. People views and thoughts just grow and differ. U may look at the friends u have now, some of them might not be the same kids that u grew up with in elementry or even middle school. I find my self looking through my past and how i grown apart from certain friends and how they have grown away from me. I take this overview, as if i made a mistake, like i did somthing wrong to not make our friendship work or even a past relationship. For instance I used to love skateboard around town with my best friend and we used to agree with eachothers view topics or even who was the best pro skater. But if feel that every word that he says know i have to cut him off, and make a debate for my view on the topic or how he would ask me to hangout go skating with him i would sometimes have to deny him. I dont want to be a dick, and bail on a friend but i think over time everyone grows up and have other views upon the world. Well wat REALLY got me think am i the mess up or this is apart of growing up a girl that i used love and go to the end of the world for. I remeber on valentines day during high school i would surpise her with flowers and balloons even a box of choclate covered strawberrys. But now i dont even have a moment of the time of the day to hangout or even wanting.

I guess this is a process of growing up, i mean in the end friends will always be friends and same goes with family. Even a past relationship can mend into having a friendship in the end. Growing apart may sometimes b a little overwhelm cause u just dont know how to take it but as long at the end of the day that u can see that everything is alright thats thats the only reinsurence u need.